Resting, she was resting. Tired from all the travel, working so hard to keep me safe. Keep me hidden from those that wanted to harm. Cut. Unmake me. Filled to the brim with unsaid words, I let them echo within me. All should be quiet. Calm. What wasn't said was louder than I could silence. He could have told her. It would have been okay. Words spoken true ringing through instead of echoing these cold halls.
I wandered between words and wind, letting the cool steel carry me further into her safety. Alone, yet not alone. Comforted by her, guided by sounds. Looking. Searching for some comfort. Some place to be serene, some place to get away from it all. My fingertips traced thin lines along the walls catching slightly in knots of steel, bolts and screws holding the inside from the outside. Lost. I stop letting her whisper to me, telling me where I can be safe. The hollow I can fill within her emptiness.
My eyes closed I can feel a cool breeze from the ventilation above, smiling I tip my chin upwards letting the redistrubition of molecules and air push onto me. It feels good. A tiny giggle of innocence I let go of, my eyes open at my own noise, clapping my hand over my mouth to keep it all in. Shouldn't be here. Can't let them find me. Hurt me. Undone.
My footsteps quicken she tells me I will be safe. I feel the warmth seeping towards me. Stopped now, no motion, no turning, all static. Static and nothing. I crouch low, knees to my chest hugging my arms tight to hold myself together. Let go. Tiny pieces will fall apart. Don't lose touch. Time to be silent.
No one is here, I can be alone with their thougths. Their love it's strong, all caring no speaking. She knows, tells me it is just so. My feet ache, dust and dirt covered, pins and needles prickling my soles. I rock back lean against her letting my feet slip heels down, jutting out from me. Spindles, thin branches reaching for warmth, aching to grow. Yearning for freedom.
Here I will wait for them to say her name. Speak the words they long to hear. Need to hear.
((Open to anyone coming to the engine room))
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